Sunday, February 24, 2008
stop and stare
i think i'm moving but i don't know where
yeah i know that everyone gets scared
but i've become what i can't be
stop and stare
you start to wonder why you're here, not there
and you'd give anything to get what's fair
but fair ain't what you really need
oh, can you see what I see
- nicole is very tired
- nicole's tired of lots of things
- like studies and trying to work hard
- nicole doesn't like to put up a front
- nicole has to do so sometimes
- and she hates it
- nicole also feels very disorientated
- because she's afraid she'd get into trouble
- she's too dumb to realise anything
- because she's very unattentive to lots of stuff
- nicole is tired even though she hasn't started mugging
- or doing anything to change her life
- because just by looking at all the stuff to be done
- right in front of her
- nicole gets tired because it really seems like its
- neverending
- this year's streaming
- and nicole wants to get into a good class
- with good combinations, which are basically
- the ones she want
- but nicole's very scared she can't make it
- because she can't understand physics for nuts
- though many people who have done streaming
- said "it's just another dumb exam"
- nicole wants to study for it
- nicole is crazy don't ask why
- nicole is really needing some time management skills
- for the rest of her life
- because everytime she seems something that is
- very entertaining/interesting
- she just gets distracted and doesn't go back
- to what she's supposed to do
- and that's the worst thing that can happen to nicole
- when she's supposed to mug
- nicole is trying to study very hard for the rest of her life
- and unfortunately nicole is not making any plans for it
- nicole has actually made plans for it
- but being a lazy bum, she hasn't executed any plans at all
- nicole really looks forward to weekends nowadays
- because that is when she doesn't need to wake up early
- that is when she doesn't need to face stress in the face
- and that is when she gets to see her churchies
- but sometimes it isn't all that nice to look forward to
- because there are also preparations for black sat
- nicole knows she's doing it for God
- but it gets tiring after sometime
- especially when it's right after youthjams
- nicole doesn't want to be drained so quickly
- because she's only sec2
- but nooby sec2s like nicole
- have no hope
- but she'll pray for hope
- til' she gets it
- nicole shall start following her plans
- to study hard
- for the CTs
- because she is going to pass them well
- and she is going to do it and she means it
- nicole knows that this so isn't a good time
- to start thinking about this
- because there's school tmr
- and it's the middle of nowhere
- nicole shall write this biggy stuff
- only once in awhile
- when she needs to change herself
- for the better, she thinks
- so nicole shall be very happy after this
- really dumb reflection
- and she shall do her QT
- she shall build her faith in God
- and she wouldn't be afraid
- neither would she be lazy
- nicole is not going to be a wuss
- until she gets it over and done with
- that reaches her expectations
- and she shall start now
- so bye
love, Nicole
at 6:05 PM
♥